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Ytd got cut on toe. :( Bled non-stop. Until now still bleeding. Too much blood to spare. Might as well bleed until I die!

Today, Oasis 4th anniversary. After that, went to study with jie jie Joey at mac. Didnt study much than before.

Me? a sadist? Nah, im not. Im not tt cruel to myself yet.

Got chased out of the house for going home at 430pm today. She dared me to. She finally say out wad she feel in the heart. DOES NOT WANT ME TO ME IN THE HOUSE.

Sigh…

Im soooo happy. After soooo many years, I finally had flu again. YAY~~                even though many ppl think that being sick is not good but in fact it is a good thing.

Today i stayed at home the whole day but spend the whole afternoon sleeping. Well, maybe im not a person who like to stay at home. or maybe i shouldnt be staying at this home.

ARGHHH… there are many many more things I wanted to talk to you. but then I scared that I might be distrubing you. Maybe we shouldnt have met each other.

Its my fault to trust you all soooo much. Even though I dislike you all TTM! Adults so wad? Can say things and dont mean it? Only say that I cannot do this and that. And you are doing it? Shldnt you all set a good examples for younger generation? You all say all this and yet you all didnt do it? Expect us to not do those things you all are doing? I CANNOT !! Look who is speaking. Its the most funniest joke.

Im not going to trust anybody even the ADULTS. Jus because you all are older than me doesnt mean that you all are correct and im wrong, and want me to listen to you all? You all can might as well jump down the building. Everytime you all want me to listen to you all? when can you all listen to what I have got to say? Everytime Im the one who always get scolding. I have enough of it. Since when you all can start looking at those people who are in the situation too and not always im the one who are in the wrong. YOU ALL ARE BIASED. You all everytime deny it but yea im here to tell you all that YOU ALL ARE BIASED. STOP lying to yourself about this. Look at the situation, since when you have blamed others and not me?

I did not say anything doesnt mean that I admit that Im in the wrong. I never stand up to explain myself doesnt also mean that Im in the wrong. Since you all have already say its my fault so i accept it. ITS MY FAULT. happy?

You all might have as well give me away when I was young. Why you all didnt? and treat me like this?

Somethings its easier to forgive than to forget. Somethings is said already and it cannot be taken back. and since you have said it. Then better mean what you have say. I dont care even if you are the PM or President of whatever country. Everytime you say that I did not mean what I have said, then you look at yourself first. Dont anyhow complain about me, if you do the same things as what I done, then you have no right to complain about me !

I hate HOME. and HOME hate me.

I jus wan to leave my own life.. I dun belong to this place. I aso dont deserve to be here.

This all is not I wanted. I just want to live a life like a normal kid. Laugh as LOUD as I can. I dont want to hide myself. Im feeling uncomfortable not being my own self.

I want that type of happiness where I cant describe when im at home. Why is it so difficult. I want to tell others that I love my FAMILY. but currently i cant in fact I HATE my FAMILY. Family is HELL to me.. or I shall say it is worst than HELL.

Its time for me to STOP living in the PAST. and START living for the FUTURE. There is still many things which are still UNKNOWN. and if I start doing things NOW, I might able to make this FUTURE KNOWN to me…

I gotta start proving people wrong… Dont jus because you never see me work hard doesnt mean I never work hard at all…

Things in the PAST will NOT change.. but whatever things I do now will CHANGE my FUTURE.. I have to think twice before taking the first big step to do things…

Time doesnt wait for people… Gotta act fast before the time is passed.. and I may never get back the TIME ever again..

Another day have passed. I feel that I have not been studying that much. But as compared to the past, I DID!

Got Chinese listening compre. My answers are somehow or somewhat different from my friends. Feel disappointed with myself. SIGH..

Reflection of the day:                                                                                     I think that FRIENDS plays an important role of our lives. To me, FRIENDS are those people who do not discriminate you and look down on you. They will accept you for who you are. And also to accept your IMPERFECTIONS. Sometimes, it’s hard to find a true friends around. But if there are TRUE FRIENDS in your life, you must APPRECIATE them. No matter how much friends you have without a true friends its hard to survive. There is so much to discuss about FRIENDSHIP and to every people they have their own view of friends to them.

There’s so many things to say. But I think I shall not post it here.

Today is Joey’s and Michelle’s birthday. Hope that they can stay happy. I din know that I was the first person to wish Joey jie jie happy birthday. haha.

Im feel so bad for hurting you if I really did. Sorry. I know that you cares for me no matter what. I feel that its been about a few years when we talk to another but in fact only 2 WEEKS. I know that maybe I cant be that strong.

Today went to church as normal. Attended English lesson. Only left 3 people. initially there’s about 9. Sigh. After that went to study at Mac with Florence and jie jie Joey. Saw James they all at mac too. So hang out with them to Rickson’s house. After that went to Burger King to study for about 45mins.

Im glad that I went home early tonight. Hope that this can last for a long time.

Today, I had my English Oral pratice with Miss Hamsa. CANNOT MAKE IT MAN. Sigh, nid more pratice.

Every choices have consequences. So i choose to Pay now and Play later.

So, im going to to study hard now and play frisbee, basketball and table tennis after my O levels. I gotta hang on for just another 3 more months. Tmr im not going frisbee training already, hope I make the right decision.

Today is Ms Elsa’s last day. Took photos today. Sorry that I didnt want to take cos I dislike taking photos.

Lazy to type :D

Well, today is my first day of the beginning of my new ‘life’. Was very disappointed, well but then I guess making mistakes is better than making mistakes during O levels. I got back my English Compre test, guess what?? I scored 5/25. =.= Maybe God want to let me know that the future is going to hard. But IM not going to give up since I had choose to start all over again.

Tommorow will be Miss Elsa’s last day in Shuqun, she is going for her Master. Hope that she can pull it through. I will promise her that I must believe in myself and one day I will let you know that I have succeeded.

Today got maths test. Hope that I can score well.

I enjoyed my day playing frisbee with Clarine, Farah and Apple. It helps me to put away all the stress I had at that moment. I hope that I can try to go for training more often, even though I did not see myself in the school team.

Today got bible study with Joanna, wasnt that bad I guess. Going to share with her about my mother nxt week. :S  SIGH.. I still prefer to keep it to myself. :( Had thought though something after the bible study. Im glad that I had stopped hanging out with my friends already. It is actually a good thing, I think.

Well, SEE how it goes bah. Hope that it is going to be better tmr. And hopefully nothing is going to happen tmr.

Today, I decided to start my life ALL over again. I know that it is going to be hard, but IM willing to try for the sake of MYSELF and those people who did not lose their hope on me. I know that it will going to be difficult but Im making this effort to try. IM gonna pick myself up again.

Thanks to those people who are there for me when Im feeling down and upset. I promise that I will live my life not in the PAST.

I will not disappoint those people who have high expectation of me. If i am then i would like to apologise first.